your own disaster.

"Hello world,
Hope you're listening,
Forgive me if I'm young,
For speaking out of turn,
There's someone I've been missing,
I think that they could be,
The better half of me."
OneRepublic.



you've gotten over it, and now it's my turn.
i've gone through it in my head so many times.
i've read it all over the place.
last week, i probably couldn't have brought myself to let go.
today, new years eve, i will.
look forward to the future.
"yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift, that's why they call it the present."
you see i have always thought the past would always be a big deal to everyone.
but it isn't. look to far in the past, and wish it was still here, is losing what really is here. missing the oppurtunity of a lifetime. the past is what made me who i am today, it's part of who i am today, and will always mean a lot to me, but i don't want to hope for it anymore. i don't want to have any hope that it will come back. it's disappointing.
i vow to never bring it up again. to look forward to each day, and see the bit of goood in every single day. even if there isn't. choosing not to talk about it does not mean forgetting. no it just means i choose not to talk about it. hah, dwelling on it and hoping it will come back, won't make it come back, and truthfully, a waste of my time. it happened, it was a highlight in my life. i've finally realized it, i'm going to close my eyes,

and let it go. the future and what happens in the future, is my own personal miracle. so i'll wait everyday, live everyday, and love everyday. don’t let what happened to you in the past affect what could happen to you today.






I WISH YOU COULD GAUGE YOUR EARS TOO.
You'd probably look hella nice with them.
I'm going to do my best and not get caught.
But idk 'bout that, they're blue O_O
AHAHAHAHAAH, but i'm super excited.
Man, hopefully maybe you'll get their permission to gauge your ears too.
My mom however, has no clue what i'm up too :)))))))