facing destiny.

Gah, i feel as if i could throw up right now.
And i probably could with the way i feel right now.
Sick to my stomach.
I didn't eat much today if that's supposed to be the source to my nausea.
But anyway, i spent most of today reading, if you saw me at all. Haha, i know i'm too into my books nowadays, but when this series is over, i have no idea what i'm going to do with my spare time. mm, maybe back to my crazy phase of intense music searching, like i do most of the time when i'm bored. but then my dad goes all psycho on me and tells me that i'm planting viruses onto the computer, (and i probably am) but still, who can stop me when i'm on my mad hunt for some good music?! If you couldn't answer that, then you know how obsessed i really am. I skipped tahitain practice because today's just not the day, AND, i feel sick O_O


My baby cousin has a fever, and he won't stop crying. It's really sad, i want to go over and hug him, but i know he's to sick to even think about being affectionate to me and hug me back. OH, while we're on the subject of hugs, i have an urge to hug you all the time ! haha, i hope you're reading this. and you know exactly who you are too :) haha, i mean, when was the last time i hugged you ?! I know for a fact i didn't even hug you last year when you handed me my birthday present. O_O it's been awhile, and honestly, i miss your hugs. or well not the half-assed ones, but the ones where you'd squeeze me, like you'd never see me again. i miss those ones. hmm, who knew what a case of nostalgia could do to you.

i'm more then halfway done through breaking dawn. and only in a day. it's unbelieveable i know. my aunt stared at me in disbelief when i told her too. haha, in case you're staring at the screen saying, "THE F ?!, ALREADY ?!" HAHAHHA. Mm, i miss the soothing sound of the rain against my window. It's been replaced by the screaming wind. I got up this morning to take my daily morning shower, and all i could hear was that. And at first i thought it was just the pipes and there was something wrong with them or something. Then i realized when i opened the shutters on my window that it was the wind. It looked like it might just blow the roof right off my house. Ugh, scary thought.

So i talked to my mom yesterday about getting a job this summer, and she agreed to let me do all that i wanted to do this summer.
An animal shelter for money, and voluteer work at a hospital for children.
Maybe summer school (for pre-cal), and throw in my dance lessons again.
What a busy summer compared to my last summer which was extremely relaxing.
Haha, i'm actually really excited. I mean, it would be my first summer doing something fun for a change. Hanging out with dogs and cats all day doesn't seem like much of a problem to me. Well, until they ask me to walk them, then i'll have to pick up the poop too. Ew, that's one thing i can die without doing once in my life.

Okay, so the best thing about bestfriends, is that they listen to you all the time.
And the other thing, you can totally take advantage of the fact that you can eat all the food you want at their house and they really don't mind ! HAHAHA.
Well, i'm planning on spending the night at Stephanie's house, my bestfriend (i have more then one) :} tonight. Hopefully we have some time to spare for the other. It's been awhile since we could really update each other on anything. Agh, it seems like forever. MMMMM, i'm in the mood for some mashed potatoes and thai tea. Haha i'm going to go make some right now, then read. BOOKWORM MUCH ?! Lol, i adore books.
(Haha, talking about adoring something, what about someone ? IADOREYOU!) :)))




Yeesh, you pulled my hair today. LOL ! And you also created a personal earthquake on my behalf. HAHAHAHAHAHA, i couldn't concentrate on reading, my urge to talk to you was overpowering my mind. I didn't understand what i was reading. Haha, but i didn't want to get in trouble either. Argh, why can't we ever have some free time, so i could just talk to you again ?!???!? Well more than i do now, i mean. :)
Lalalalalala, :) I really do have an urge to hug you, and recieve maybe one that would probably suffocate me because you squeeze me so hard. Teehee :)
Oh goodness, i hope we talk this weekend, (off the internet, i mean).
Hehe, i have such a busy schedule ahead, i hope you call ! I would call you, but i'm always afraid i'm bothering you.
You never call at a time when you could be bothering me, btw. :)
Oks,Bye.