Dangers lurking behind my door.

Could you really ever say to much to a person and push them away ?

I mean, everything that goes on in my life, somehow i make it affect you too.
Would you ever think of me the way you used too ?
Or maybe i'm not who i was before.
Somehow i've managed to make my life a living hell because i tell myself that maybe things will eventually turn out the way it should and go back to what it should be.
But i end up dissappointing myself.
I think i've distanced myself from so many people because of my lack of ability to "shut my mouth" about you.
But then again, that's what i think.

I come down with a case of nostalgia all the time for you and everything else.
But, i shouldn't.
Maybe things were meant to work out the way it is.
I'm a big believer in fate, and karma.

But all this venting just basically sums down too,
Gosh darn it, i've never missed anything more in my life than i miss you.
Hopefully, i never have to leave here :(






On a better note.
I'm supposed to spend the night at asia's tomorrow, and then go shopping with her.
Then we'll have some fun, and chill on a four day weekend !
I'm supppaaa excited.
But in the meantime, SO MUCH HOMEWORK.
Oh shoot me, haha just kidding. :)

P.S, i sound so pessimistic, and i apologize.
PPS. i need to some major catching up with SO MANY PEOPLE.